Waking Up in a World That’s Still Asleep
The Weight of Seeing Too Much
“Once you wake up, you can’t unsee it.”
That’s the hardest part.
The world no longer looks the same.
The things people chase—money, status, security—start to feel empty. Fragile. Almost laughable in their instability.
Because one crack in the system, one failure of a cog, and everything collapses.
And yet, so many still cling to it like it’s the only way.
I question it all.
Why do we live under constant fear—of losing our homes, our jobs, our voices, our freedom?
Why are we conditioned to obey rules made by people who don’t follow them themselves?
The more I ask, the more I see:
Most people don’t want to see it.
Because once they do, they’ll have to admit how little control they actually have.
The Loneliness of Thinking Differently
When you start thinking outside the box, people get uncomfortable. Friends give you strange looks. Conversations feel different, like you’re speaking in a language they don’t understand. You become the one they joke about, the tin-foil hat conspiracist, the one who’s “gone a bit mad.” They don’t realise that you used to think the way they do, that you once believed in the system too—until you saw past the illusion.
So I ask myself…
Am I really the crazy one? Or am I just breaking free?
Because to me, insanity is trusting a system that can take away your entire existence at any moment. Insanity is believing that working yourself to exhaustion for a house you barely get to live in, food that’s poisoned with chemicals, and a life that belongs more to corporations than yourself is normal. But somehow, I’m the strange one for questioning it?
What’s Wrong with Me?
Sometimes, I wonder. If I was happier before questioning everything, if I could just go back to playing along, would it be easier? Maybe. But that would mean going back to sleep. Pretending I don’t know what I know now. And that’s not an option.
So, what’s wrong with me? Nothing. What’s wrong is the system that makes people so afraid to open their eyes. What’s wrong is the way people choose comfort over truth, compliance over freedom.
Stuck in the In-Between
I’m not fully out of the system yet. I still exist within it, playing my role while planning my escape. That’s the hardest part—knowing you don’t belong in this world, but not yet being free of it either. Watching others move through life as if everything is fine, wondering how they don’t see what’s so clear to you now.
I know I need to shed the last pieces of what no longer serves me. I know I need to step fully into a different way of living. But it’s hard. Not because I don’t want to let go, but because the system has its claws deep, and walking away from something that’s been ingrained into you for a lifetime is no small thing.
But I also know this: The more I step away, the lighter I feel. The more I trust myself, the less I care about their opinions. And the more I let go of the illusion, the closer I get to something real.
I don’t belong here. Not in this system, not in this way of life. And I don’t need anyone else to understand that. Because I see what they don’t.
And one day, I won’t be stuck in the in-between anymore. I’ll be free.
If you’ve ever felt like you’re too awake for this world—but too quiet to explain it—
You’re not alone.
The in-between can feel isolating, but maybe it’s also sacred.
A pause. A space to gather strength before stepping into something new.
I don’t have it all figured out. But I’m walking it. Writing it.
And if you are too—thank you for being here.
→ Let’s keep remembering who we are.
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