A Voice That Refuses to Be Ignored
Lately, I’ve felt something shifting inside me—like a voice getting louder, refusing to be ignored. The more I try to carry on as usual, the more I realise I can’t. Something has to change.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve felt like an outsider—existing in a world that doesn’t quite fit. Always adapting, always waiting for the next storm. I’ve spent years surviving, mirroring those around me, keeping my head above water in a society that feels too loud, too demanding, too disconnected from what truly matters.
But now, something inside me is shifting.
I’m beginning to realise that reality isn’t something that just happens to us. We shape it. And right now, I’m standing at a crossroads—will I continue down the same path of survival, or will I step into my power and create the life I truly want?
Living in a Constant State of Survival
I feel everything.
The buzzing of the world. The constant demands. The endless to-do lists.
I wear so many roles—business owner, mother, wife, provider, keeper of memories, bearer of responsibilities. My mind never stops. It is in survival mode at all times, scanning for the next threat, waiting for the next disaster.
Even though my life now is safe and stable, my body doesn’t always know that. Decades of unpredictability trained me to expect chaos, to stay hyper-aware, to brace for something to go wrong. My mind still clings to that old wiring, even when reality no longer matches it.
Logically, I know my life is good. I have a loving husband, two happy and thriving children, and a home filled with warmth and laughter. And yet, deep inside, I’m still that child bracing for the explosion, waiting for the moment when everything implodes.
Trauma lingers like a shadow, shaping my thoughts, my fears, my ability to trust in peace.
And yet, I also know—I am not my past. I am not destined to repeat the chaos I was raised in.
I am breaking cycles. I am building something new.
The Pull to Leave It All Behind
The more I wake up to this reality, the stronger I feel the pull to leave behind the systems that drain my energy, that tie me to a life I don’t want.
I dream of a homestead, a life in harmony with nature, where my hands are in the soil, my children are free to roam, and my time is spent truly living, not just earning enough to survive.
I get glimpses of this life when we escape into nature—when we walk in the quiet places where the world slows down and I can finally breathe.
These are the moments I feel most myself. When my body isn’t bracing for impact. When the only thing I need to think about is the sound of the wind and the earth beneath my feet.
And now, I understand—this is not just a dream. This is a calling.
Energy, Awareness & The Shift
I believe deeply that we have the power to shape our own reality.
Everything is connected. Energy is constantly shifting. We are co-creators in the universe.
I feel it all around me—the buzzing, the movement, the shifts. But at the same time, I feel like I am wading through the noise of modern life, desperately trying to hold onto the clarity that nature offers me.
I notice it in crowds—the way my skin almost vibrates with the energy around me, picking up every emotion, every unspoken tension.
I notice it in nature too, but there, it feels different—like a hum that soothes instead of overwhelms.
The more I tune in, the more I realise just how much external energy shapes my state of being.
So how do I move forward? How do I step out of survival mode and into creation mode?
How I’m Reclaiming My Energy & My Life
🌿 Writing to Reclaim My Mind
Writing slows my racing thoughts, giving me space to process without being drowned by the chaos of daily life. I am using this space to bring order to the confusion, to channel my energy into something tangible.
🌿 Honouring My Energy Cycles
When I focus my energy, I am unstoppable. I need to create an environment that allows for that focus—reducing distractions, setting boundaries, and structuring my days in a way that supports my strengths.
🌿 Bringing My Future into the Present
While I can’t uproot everything overnight, I can start living in alignment with my future self. That means making more time for nature, simplifying where I can, protecting my energy, and taking small but deliberate steps toward a freer life.
🌿 Healing the Past, Trusting the Present
The fear that everything will collapse is just an echo of a past life I no longer live in. Every time I choose peace over panic, I am rewriting that story.
My children will never live in fear like I did.
That alone is proof that I am already breaking free.
This Is My Awakening
I don’t have all the answers.
I am still unlearning, still finding my way, still navigating this shift.
But I refuse to stay trapped in a life that isn’t mine.
I refuse to let fear rule my choices.
This journey is about more than just escaping the noise of society.
It’s about stepping fully into my own power.
It’s about choosing simplicity, peace, and alignment.
This is my awakening.
This is me, creating my own reality.
Are You Feeling the Shift Too?
I know I’m not alone in this.
So many of us are waking up to the realisation that we don’t have to accept the life we’ve been given—we can create something different.
💬 Have you felt this shift too?
💬 Have you begun questioning the way life is ‘supposed’ to be?
If so, you’re not crazy. You’re awakening.
I’d love to hear from others who feel this shift happening. What’s been your experience? How are you navigating this awakening?
Let’s talk. Let’s build this new reality together. 💙
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